Water Puts Out Fire?

put that smile on 

(pretend and it will get better)

chest tight and face wet 

(with regret?)

palate swollen from deep breaths in

(drunk on gin)

eyes blurred from ocean waves 

(crashing onto my skin)

shaking out the numb

(let me feel something)

distant hum between my ears

(after thought)

i wish that tomorrow was yesterday 

(so that i could slip away)

you can want so badly to find a home in a heart
(pretend and it will get better)

it wasnt enough 

(to recklessly break off pieces of myself)

to hand them out like candy to see who thinks i taste the sweetest

(will you keep coming back for more?)

i'm sure i will find that even though i make you drip 

(from the corners of your mouth)
no roots 

more adventure

(other emotions) 

all make your chest explode with fire

i thought water always put out fires

(i guess i was wrong)

i am not your home to seek comfort   i am not the four walls of a beating heart  my body is not a place  for old bones to seek refuge  and i am no longer a graveyard for men  with tired and broken hearts searching for whatever it is they need   don't worry, i'll be fine... (this time)