Nature; The Beauty.

The Pace of Erosion VS The Flooding Tsunami ---Hope Wins

Sometimes I'm left feeling scattered and spread so thin that I want to disappear into my thoughts.
Disappear into the vastness and the comfort of my 14x15 box that I call home.
There is nothing that scares me here; nothing unknown.
I have my warm thoughts and blankets..
Along with the memories that I choose setting on my dresser.
Maybe, despite my outward confidence, I'm extremely insecure.
Maybe, I'm simply terrified of opening up enough to be loved.

My head feels a little fuzzy after the last two months.
A whirl wind of confusion, enjoyment, 5 hour conversations, laughter, and, now, hope...

Hope mixed with a bit of terror... 
Not like the terror of a horror movie, no.
A terror of my heart can't take another shot...

I move back to hope...

I have big dreams... 
But I have an even bigger heart.
Though not everyone sees it at first glance....

Heart Skipped A Beat

My heart skipped a beat when I read the words you sent... 
Your honesty made them harder to swallow...
Because I knew there were no lies or dreams or hesitation in them...

"I want to treat you like you deserve...
Everything else will fall into place."

I'll Keep My Cluttered Mind

“If a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, then what are we to think of an empty desk?”
-Albert Einstein



I will always take the clutter.
The endless ramblings of my own self's constant chatter bouncing ideas back and forth in my head.

The steady words that link themselves together into a delicate song
The endless poems that scatter themselves 
From my mind to my fingertips
The steady scribbles my hands write out when these verses arise  
Pen to paper sends smiles across my face

The pictures that I paint for myself
Watercolors of life's most precious images...
I want to get them down with simple strokes and beautiful washes.
Brush to canvas sends smiles across my face

My mind is nonstop
I can barely go anywhere without something growing into the lines of a book.
It never quiets...
And that is okay.

Who is to say a cluttered mind is bad?
Who is to say my mind is too much.
I'll take it over the desolation of yours.

I'll take my beautiful chaos and keep it, always.

Your Skin On My Skin

He watched her as she entered the room. Everything was washed out from the sunlight.  His warm eyes followed her every footstep that she took towards him. The shadows danced around the room, playfully hiding between the two of them. He was sitting on the edge of the bed, tired from the day.  Her smile lit up the room, because he lit up her world.  She was now within reach of him and he out stretched his arms to her.  His smooth hands touched her legs and he slowly wrapped them around to the curves of her lace covered body and up her back. He placed his head on her stomach and gave one simple kiss. With the most delicate touch she placed her hands on the back of his neck running her fingertips through his hair... he was now smiling.

She could feel his hands tighten around her waist as she brought her hands around and placed them on his cheeks lifting his head up so that she could look into his eyes.  The deepest blue with tiny flecks of color glistened in them.  She placed her hands on his shoulders and slowly pushed him back. As he laid down a deep breath of air came out followed by hands pulling her near him. Inch by inch she crept on top of him, running her hands under his shirt as she drew closer to him. In one slow but steady motion the cotton garment was off and lay beside him. With his soft skin now exposed she laid her body onto his. His warm skin touching hers was almost electric for them both.  His hands explored her body up and down as her fingers traced the sides of his face. She leaned in for a kiss and stopped just barely touching her lips to his.  She smiled and her lips parted against his. She pressed her mouth against his and her body tingled all over. His kisses were sweeter than any honey she had ever tasted.  His hands were holding her face now and she could feel his heart racing. Beat after beat she thought it was going to bust out of his chest. She couldn't lie though, hers was just as heavy.  The caress of his lips on hers were wet and full of passion.  He calmly, but without hesitation, raised up bringing her body with his and never breaking his kiss.  Her legs were now wrapped around his waist.  Her fingertips lightly touching his face, neck, and chest.  She wrapped her arms around his neck as he laid her down and made his advancements towards her.  With his body over hers she ran her hands down his back sending chills up his spine. The passion grew with every passing moment. 

The window cast a halo of light on them.  They were meant for that moment. There was more laughter and smiles that day than words.  There were no words needed for them.  

Everything they wanted to say they could feel in touch.
Everything they wanted to say they could see in the others eyes.
Everything was perfect.

They laid there throughout the day
Switching between the bed and the floor; using one another as blankets.
Finally away from the world, watching the sun set through the window.

Hand in hand...Skin on skin...Lips on lips
They watched the sun fade to night; 
One by one and breath by breath the stars fell down around them.

Give Thanks

Thanksgiving.

I give you thanks Mother Earth,

Your dirt,
Your rocks,
Your trees
Your water
Your grass,
Thank you for life.

Watch The Stars Fall Together.

Words said across the miles...
Laughter sent through the air.
This vast ocean lying between something so real
The universe is testing us,
I know that she is.

You are this beautiful song in my head 
That keeps playing on repeat..
When we share our stories
Hours tick by like minutes
And minutes like seconds.

You have your clouds full of rain
And I have my clouds full of snow
One day we will melt this snow into rain
And turn the rain into steam

You make me want to feel again 

You are like water rolling off my skin...

Constant... 
Steady... 
Soft...
Sending chills down my spine
Even across the miles.
I want you to be the breath on the back of my neck in the early morning
I want you to hold me in your arms just one time.

You give this old ghost a home again
You make me feel part of the human race
You are the soft simple sweet smile.

Who says that we can't touch 
Close your eyes 
And kiss the sky. 
I'm kissing it too 
Imagine what it feels like to breathe me in. 
Keep that clear focus 
It will happen. 
Our souls will become one 
Intertwine and mesh together   
You will feel my lips brush softly against yours.
If only for a brief moment

I'll lie awake counting the stars fall from the sky 
While you watch the sun rise in the morning frost
And in those moments we should know 
The universe will bring us near 
To watch the stars fall together hand in hand. 

Scribbled Words

It is the scribbled words
I left on top of scrap papers
That leaves you
The unfinished poem 
Sitting in the darkest corner of my room

Help Me To Remember

I wrote.
I thought. 
I prayed.

Kiss me, so I remember how.

Howl At The Moon

Start with your story...
Tell me everything in detail.
Tell me of your laughter and tell me of your tears.
Tell me everything in-between
I'll listen until you feel naked and clean.
Speak until you've had that weight lifted from your heavy beautiful heart.

Tell me of your moments,
Wrap them up with a bow.
Please fill my soul with sweetness.
With every word you spill out
Tell me of your vulnerability 
So that I can share mine too.

I always feel naked... 
Especially when I sit under this blood red moon.
I'll tell you this,
I sped out past the city lights 
And onto this empty highway.
I heard the wilderness calling
He has been yelling out my name 
Something has been tugging at my heart for far to long.
I've been yearning to howl at that moon like the animal that I am.

Come howl with me....
Let's tell our stories out loud.
Let's scream into the universe.... 
Only to have her yell back,
"Come to me and tell me everything."
I'll tell her that she's the lucky one
But to never forget that I kissed his lips first...
Once upon a time.

Let us make a pact to kiss the sky...
Lie our bodies down on the earth.
Let's fall asleep on snowy mountain tops
Only to wake upon the sandy beaches with our toes in the sea...
Hearing nothing but Mother Earth... 
Wrapping her sweet arms around us.

I didn't look back...
Not one single glance.
The more we look back...
The more we are breaking our necks.

Let's set back our watches an hour 

Just to have a little more time to the day.
Let's set out for destinations unknown and drive toward the clouds.

We'll remember to save all of our sleep for our next life.
We need to make all that we can of this one...
Learn to never hold anything back.
We will drink too much 
And laugh too much.
Remember to never hold onto to anything too long.
Let's say things we don't mean
Love with everything we are.

We need to be free.
We need to be wild.
Let's howl at the moon like the animals we truly are.